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Pardon the inactivity.
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A lot of things have been happening, and they're all occurring too fast for my liking.
My mom and dad have patched things up and are (from what I am aware of) happily living their separate lives.
My mom, sisters, and I moved out of my grandmother's house to live in a new house with my mom's boyfriend (but we have to pretend they're married and stuff and I don't know why we have to lie--my mom's weird like that).
My grades are crap, especially with major subjects. Finals week is approaching and I feel like I don't care. I don't know why.
Apparently I'm moving to another country in about a month and I am freaking out because I'm still adjusting to my new life and I don't want any more changes.
Why can't things just stay the way they are for a little longer? It's like someone's hurrying me to do something when I'm not even halfway done with another thing.
My mom and dad have patched things up and are (from what I am aware of) happily living their separate lives.
My mom, sisters, and I moved out of my grandmother's house to live in a new house with my mom's boyfriend (but we have to pretend they're married and stuff and I don't know why we have to lie--my mom's weird like that).
My grades are crap, especially with major subjects. Finals week is approaching and I feel like I don't care. I don't know why.
Apparently I'm moving to another country in about a month and I am freaking out because I'm still adjusting to my new life and I don't want any more changes.
Why can't things just stay the way they are for a little longer? It's like someone's hurrying me to do something when I'm not even halfway done with another thing.
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Not a happy birthday
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Long rant ahead. Involves family problems that you might not want to read about. Full of angst and sadness and everything else that comes with a rant on families.
Since my birthday falls on a Sunday I had to celebrate it on the Saturday before it, which was the 22nd of August. A family friend brought my twin sister
to watch Inside Out, took us to dinner at a buffet, and brought us to the hospital where my brother's girlfriend gave birth to our first nephew. We even got the gifts we wanted, which our dad (who doesn't live with us, by the way, and it's been that way for eight months) gave to us through said family friend.
The day would have ended on a happy note, but someone had to ruin it. Who ruined it? It wasn't an enemy or some random stranger, or even some sort of calamity.
It was my mom.
She saw a note left by my dad on one of our gifts and she grabbed it and cussed. She tore it into pieces IN FRONT OF MY FACE and did the same with the note he left for my twin. She even had the audacity to post it on Facebook and Instagram and tag us in it.
After that she complained that she was being ambushed and that she thought "we were a team". She told us that when our dad left, he did not only leave her but he left us too. She said that if we didn't stay with her, she would have been so happy and she could totally live easy, like she claims my dad is. She said that she chose to live in difficulty because she loves us. She even said that if we want to accept our gifts from him, that's fine, but if we want to see him, talk to him, thank him, or whatever it is we can't do with him anymore, we should just leave her and go to him.
What. The. Hell?!?!?
After that she goes on crying that her "perfect" day was ruined because of a gift from my dad. What she doesn't realize is that she ruined our first seemingly perfect day with all this bitterness and petty anger. I am so tempted to leave my mother but not without hurting her physically in so many different ways. I want to strangle her, punch her, kick her around, slap her, and leave her half dead on the bedroom floor before leaving the house. But this does not mean I want to leave to go to my dad. I love my dad, but he won't understand. I just want to leave this house and stay as far away from my mom as possible. She's making me want to leave her. Maybe if I did, my life would be so much easier. I would be able to get a job, earn money, and be with people who are willing to listen, and I wouldn't have to put up with her crap anymore.
Best birthday ever, am I right? Perks of being twenty-one, I guess.
Emotionally exhausting birthday to me...
Since my birthday falls on a Sunday I had to celebrate it on the Saturday before it, which was the 22nd of August. A family friend brought my twin sister
to watch Inside Out, took us to dinner at a buffet, and brought us to the hospital where my brother's girlfriend gave birth to our first nephew. We even got the gifts we wanted, which our dad (who doesn't live with us, by the way, and it's been that way for eight months) gave to us through said family friend.The day would have ended on a happy note, but someone had to ruin it. Who ruined it? It wasn't an enemy or some random stranger, or even some sort of calamity.
It was my mom.
She saw a note left by my dad on one of our gifts and she grabbed it and cussed. She tore it into pieces IN FRONT OF MY FACE and did the same with the note he left for my twin. She even had the audacity to post it on Facebook and Instagram and tag us in it.
After that she complained that she was being ambushed and that she thought "we were a team". She told us that when our dad left, he did not only leave her but he left us too. She said that if we didn't stay with her, she would have been so happy and she could totally live easy, like she claims my dad is. She said that she chose to live in difficulty because she loves us. She even said that if we want to accept our gifts from him, that's fine, but if we want to see him, talk to him, thank him, or whatever it is we can't do with him anymore, we should just leave her and go to him.
What. The. Hell?!?!?
After that she goes on crying that her "perfect" day was ruined because of a gift from my dad. What she doesn't realize is that she ruined our first seemingly perfect day with all this bitterness and petty anger. I am so tempted to leave my mother but not without hurting her physically in so many different ways. I want to strangle her, punch her, kick her around, slap her, and leave her half dead on the bedroom floor before leaving the house. But this does not mean I want to leave to go to my dad. I love my dad, but he won't understand. I just want to leave this house and stay as far away from my mom as possible. She's making me want to leave her. Maybe if I did, my life would be so much easier. I would be able to get a job, earn money, and be with people who are willing to listen, and I wouldn't have to put up with her crap anymore.
Best birthday ever, am I right? Perks of being twenty-one, I guess.
Emotionally exhausting birthday to me...
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Eyyyyy
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Who else is single?
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For the twentieth year in a row, I have no Valentine.
I have family, I have friends, but no Valentine.
I'm not bitter or anything. It's just that I'm freaking twenty and everyone my age or younger has already had a boyfriend or girlfriend or any romantic relationship and I feel left out.
I have family, I have friends, but no Valentine.
I'm not bitter or anything. It's just that I'm freaking twenty and everyone my age or younger has already had a boyfriend or girlfriend or any romantic relationship and I feel left out.
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OC Feature
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This is how it works.
1. For the first 10 people who comment on this journal, I will feature one of their characters I like the most and comment my choice. (I will go to your gallery and pick one character and one picture I like, you don't need to tell me which one)
2. If you comment, please do the same in your journal, and put me in the first feature slot. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone! I feature you after you made the journal.
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I got this from
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by
This is her character Arya. She is one of the main characters of Kianne's comic, Switched. I haven't gotten around to reading it yet but seeing how beautiful this drawing is, I just had to feature it!
Kianne, if you see this, please redraw this or color it digitally so there are no lines.
1. For the first 10 people who comment on this journal, I will feature one of their characters I like the most and comment my choice. (I will go to your gallery and pick one character and one picture I like, you don't need to tell me which one)
2. If you comment, please do the same in your journal, and put me in the first feature slot. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone! I feature you after you made the journal.
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I got this from
1.
by This is her character Arya. She is one of the main characters of Kianne's comic, Switched. I haven't gotten around to reading it yet but seeing how beautiful this drawing is, I just had to feature it!
Kianne, if you see this, please redraw this or color it digitally so there are no lines.
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